Just over a week ago, something happened that was very disheartening to me personally. This thing that happened did not directly affect anyone else, nor did it directly affect the church. But it did affect others, even if they didn’t realize.
Although I’m learning and writing about community and fellowship and sharing and living life together, I found myself keeping this discouragement to myself. Why? Because this is my natural way of protecting myself and others.
However, I did share my pain with a few people… not enough people… not the church… but a few people. Looking back, I know that I should have told more people about this discouragement. It would have been better for me and it would have been better for them. But, I didn’t do that.
In many ways, I’m still too private of a person, even though I “know” the importance of sharing life together – all of life. But, I am growing in this area. I don’t know what will happen the next time something painful happens to me… but I pray that I keep growing.